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[ Yuji is clingy enough by nature, a boy accustomed to giving physical affection and leaning into it, but he craves it more now. He wants to feel Raidou's pulse, wants to nuzzle close into his skin, to settle there and feel the warmth of him. Perfectly lovely. ]

I know. I get it.

[ How long had it taken him to work through his own grief and sadness? ]

I just want to take care of them.

You do. Everyone knows how much you care about those two. Them especially.

[Raidou was never a physical person, but Yuji has become the one exception. Though that really is an understatement. Not only does he welcome it, but craves it now too. How long the last few weeks were, not being able to do this. Raidou closes his eyes, resting his head against his boyfriend's.]

You care so much about everyone.

[Possibly his favorite trait of Yuji's.]

I don't want them to forget it, that's all.

[ Life is so fickle, and harsh, and before when Nanami had been here they'd fought. Yuji doesn't want the man to disappear without knowing how special he was to Yuji, and his connection with Choso is only growing by the day.

He doesn't know how to express it all without being overbearing, so it's a struggle. ]

It's how I've always been.

Kindness like yours won't be forgotten.

[He nuzzles against Yuji just a little, a light smile on his face.]

That you can still find kindness in your heart after everything you've been through, it's--

[It's what he loves about him. Ah, but that's far too embarrassing to say, isn't it. His face reddens, but he's smiling.]

I admire it. It makes me want to be better.

[ Yuji just sighs, closing his eyes. ]

You don't need to be better. I'm not - it's not like that -

[ He grits his teeth for a moment, fangs scraping against his lip. ]

I have ugly thoughts too. Bad ones. That's not something to admire.

Me too. It's only natural. And you're up against so much more.

[Raidou holds him just a little tighter.]

Because we're human. Even when it seems like we're not.

[Raidou, who lives among demons; Yuji, who has to contend with Sukuna.]

That doesn't mean you're not worthy of admiration.

[There's a quiet sigh as a realization hits him, his voice quieter when he speaks again.]

We may never be perfect. But we can be kind.

[ Something prickles at Yuji, and his eyes get a little damp, before he licks his lips, face pressed tight against Raidou. ]

Before my grandpa died... He asked me to promise.

[ A shaky breath. Yuji can remember the words, as if they're branded on his skin, the last words his grandfather ever said to him. ]

'You're a strong kid, so help people. It doesn't have to be all the time, just whenever you can... Don't expect gratitude. Just help them.'

[ He laughs, hoarsely. ]

I want to keep that promise, even if he cursed me in the end.

He sounds like he was a wise person.

[A hand stokes him gently on the back of his head.]

Did he curse you, though? I'd bet that you'd still be this way, even if he hadn't.

He was kind of a hardass, actually.

[ But Yuji loved him, so much. The only family he had, the only father he had. ]

Maybe. I'll never really know.

Then someone who knew what the value of kindness was worth.

[Someone who probably wasn't, who didn't want Yuji end up like him.]

I guess the only way you'd know is if you stop being kind. Which I know you won't.

Not on purpose.

[ He does not quite realise he is spoiling the moment by trying to get closer to Raidou's collarbone. ]

[He stops what he was about to say, noticing this. Normally, he certainly wouldn't stop him. Things are a little different right now. And while he meant it when he told Yuji he doesn't mind if he needs to feed from him, he also saw how unnerved Yuji was by the idea. Raidou didn't want Yuji to get too hungry and end up doing something he might regret to someone else, but he didn't consider that it might be himself.]

Yuji...

[Ever so gently, Raidou takes a hand under Yuji's chin to have him look him in the eyes.]

Are you sure you're not too hungry?

Hm?

[ It takes Yuji a moment to realise what he’s doing, then he’s lurching back with wide eyes, staring at Raidou before he swallows and lifts a hand to cover his mouth. His fangs are definitely there, and they feel sore. ]

I’m not! I… I didn’t think I was…

[Raidou feels a little bad, upsetting him, and takes Yuji's hand from his mouth, wrapping his fingers around it.]

It's--fine. Really. I figured you hadn't even noticed. I almost didn't.

[He's doing his best to sound reassuring.]

I know you can't really help it yet.

[Being new to this whole vampire thing and all.]

We were just talking about how I’m meant to help people.

[ Not hurt them. As if he hadn’t offered Katsuki his own neck, as if he hadn’t gotten himself beaten to pieces to save his friends, as if he hadn’t… ]

I thought the Wombs would’ve been the last thing I had to eat. That’s all.

[ At least in terms of actual body parts. ]

You lets Katsuki have your blood. That helped him. But unfortunately, you're in the same predicament.

[A sad look creeps in, feeling bad for Yuji and everyone going through this. Yuji especially, though, after the remark about the Wombs. How can you be reassuring in a time like this?]

Well, at least it's not-- that. Not that blood seems much better. But, I don't mind helping you. Really. Just like you helped Katsuki.

[His thumb caresses the top of Yuji's hand, squeezing it gently.]

You don't have to bite me, if you don't want to. I can have them draw it at the med bay.

[ Yuji wants to say it’s different, wants to say that there’s no right for him to have it, all confused with the ease with which he’s had to eat things before, but that was life or death. This… ]

I know. It’s stupid, to be so…

[ One rule for them, another for him. He tilts, leaning into his boyfriend’s touch before he sighs softly. ]

You smell so good, so safe, so… I’m scared. What if I can’t stop?

Ah... what if I'm too delicious?

[The tiniest of jokes, said with a sheepish smile and a slightly reddening face. Just trying to break the tension, if at all possible. He swallows, while slightly worried about this, is still confident enough in both himself and Yuji that it'll be okay.]

I'm strong enough now. I can stop you, if you think it would get that bad. But I don't think you will. I trust you.

[He chews his lip a little nervously, his gaze ever so slightly coy.]

Ah, besides... if you take too much now, you won't be able to have any later.

Johei!

[ Yuji’s eyes widen as a blush spreads over his cheeks, his heart racing. It’s a little much, the coyness, the tease, but it does what Raidou probably wanted it to do. It breaks that strange tension in Yuji, and he’s leaning in, their noses nudging.

Finding joy and laughter in the midst of pain. That’s part of being human too.

Leaning in, Yuji places a soft kiss on his lips before chasing along his jaw, teasing right back. ]

You could stop me… Or is this just an excuse to see if you can pin me with your strength now?

[He's relieved that worked, and not upset Yuji further. Raidou relaxes back as Yuji leans in, smiling into that kiss.]

Mm. I would guess I am not as strong as you yet.

[It is a little scary, knowing how strong Yuji is, how badly this could go. But he has to trust in both Yuji and in his own strength. He can handle it. He knows he can. He's been through much, much worse for much less.

Raidou tilts his head up, giving just a little more access to his neck if Yuji wants it.]

But I suppose this is one way to find out.

[ It’s incredible hard to resist the urge, especially when Raidou is showing off his neck, the soft skin, warm to the touch and dragging Yuji’s eyes to it. Breathing out, he licks his lips before he tilts his head up to look at his boyfriend again.

It’s so hard to resist, and it’s warring inside him - instinctive urge versus his own desire to be stronger fighting with the fact that the idea of leaving marks on Raidou is kind of hot either way.

Damn. ]

You’ll stop me? You can do whatever you need to…

[ He’s leaning in again, nuzzling, and his fangs scrape gently over Raidou’s neck. ]

Yeah. [Raidou's hands move to take Yuji by his upper arms, holding on with a decent grip. A way that he can shove Yuji away if needed.

Those fangs running along his neck cause him to shiver ever so slightly. Raidou closes his eyes, taking a steadying breath.]

Go ahead.

[ Raidou is strong, always has been, Yuji’s well aware of it, and there’s so much dancing between them right now. It’s the connection they share, the flash of their emotional bond, the way Yuji can almost smell the flush of his blood under his skin, heady and temptingly addictive.

He has to be careful.

With permission given, despite his reservations and his fears, Yuji gives into the urge and sinks his fangs into Raidou’s neck, body leaning into his as he chases the taste of him. It’s immediate, the hot flush of blood against his tongue, flicking out to try and steal every single part of it, to make sure he doesn’t miss anything, and Yuji…

He makes an embarsssing sound against his skin. ]

[He does really trust Yuji, probably more than himself after attacking him in the dungeon. Yuji probably has to bite down harder than expected to get past that nanobot-enhanced strength. A quiet, restrained noise escapes from Raidou, who just realized he was holding it for a moment, and his hands tighten on his arms.

The fangs sharp enough to pierce the skin so cleanly that it's not nearly as bad as Raidou had expected. It's warm, the sensation of blood and Yuji's mouth against his skin, and it's like he can understand how easily someone could become a victim of something like this, especially when it's someone like this--

Ah, but then there's that noise Yuji just made. Raidou's face reddens deeply hearing that. He lets out a shuttered breath, almost an amused sound.]

Mm. I-I'm glad you approve.

[ It's delicious, Yuji thinks, his tongue flicking over Raidou's skin before he breathes out. It feels nice, to sink into Raidou's body, to wrap around him and taste his blood, feeling warm and content, eyes closing. He wants nothing more to wrap around him and not stop, but he's doing what he can to muster himself and not take too much.

He doesn't want to drain him. That's the last thing he wants.

Shivering a little, some of that strange hunger inside him abating, he squeezes his arms around his boyfriend. ]

I always approve of you.

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