[ The problem right now is that Yuji doesn’t want to be rational. He doesn’t want it to make sense. He’s hurt and he’s upset and it feels targeted - even if he knows it wasn’t. Neither Choso nor Nanami would deliberately hurt him.
But that’s not the point. ]
it’ll be too late then it’s fine. i already said it’s whatever to choso. it doesn’t even matter. nanami probably doesn’t want to celebrate it
i KNOW they care about me i don't know why i'm so upset.
[ There are so many reasons why, aren't there? Being given the news last minute - either because they didn't want him to know or because they didn't think he'd care enough to celebrate Nanami's birthday. They didn't tell him. It's the first time he can celebrate Nanami's birthday, and he's not been allowed to be part of it. Why? Because he's a child?
Seventeen is older than fifteen, but in the eyes of Nanami and Choso it probably doesn't matter.
Any other time, Yuji wouldn't have cared, but with all of it at once, alongside the nightmare of June and his own self-loathing and guilt coming to the surface, he can't shake it off the way he normally would. ]
and then choso was a jerk and brought up how he did stuff with megumi's dad so maybe he's gonna do stuff with nanami too so maybe they're hiding that from me or whatever
[ Do something to take his mind of the sad parts and focus on the good parts. Which is hard, but... He feels so fragile right now. They left their rings behind - what if something happens? A rift? He has no idea where they're going. ]
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I'm sure he's thinking the same thing. That he's glad to be here for another birthday. Why not get away for a few days and forget his troubles?
I'm sorry, I know how important he is to you. But when he comes back, you'll get to keep the celebration going for him.
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But that’s not the point. ]
it’ll be too late then
it’s fine. i already said it’s whatever to choso.
it doesn’t even matter. nanami probably doesn’t want to celebrate it
[ Not with him anyway. ]
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More warning would have been nice, I agree. But I'm sure they didn't mean to deliberately exclude you. They both care about you so much.
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i don't know why i'm so upset.
[ There are so many reasons why, aren't there? Being given the news last minute - either because they didn't want him to know or because they didn't think he'd care enough to celebrate Nanami's birthday. They didn't tell him. It's the first time he can celebrate Nanami's birthday, and he's not been allowed to be part of it. Why? Because he's a child?
Seventeen is older than fifteen, but in the eyes of Nanami and Choso it probably doesn't matter.
Any other time, Yuji wouldn't have cared, but with all of it at once, alongside the nightmare of June and his own self-loathing and guilt coming to the surface, he can't shake it off the way he normally would. ]
and then choso was a jerk and brought up how he did stuff with megumi's dad
so maybe he's gonna do stuff with nanami too
so maybe they're hiding that from me or whatever
it doesn't matter. i'm gonna go to the sim room.
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[Hopefully it doesn't sound too harsh - this is why he'd rather talk in person than over text - but it's true. He knows all too well now.]
It does matter, your feelings matter. With everything that's happened lately, I think everyone's emotions are running high. Yours especially.
We can always get away ourselves, too. We wanted to, right?
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[ It makes sense. He's not mad about it, necessarily, but he is frustrated and hurt. ]
yeah.
but i don't think i'd be good company right now.
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[He knows how guilty Yuji always feels.]
You're always good company. 💜
But if you'd rather blow off some steam alone, I understand. You know how to find me if you need me.
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[ Do something to take his mind of the sad parts and focus on the good parts. Which is hard, but... He feels so fragile right now. They left their rings behind - what if something happens? A rift? He has no idea where they're going. ]
sorry
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I think that's a good idea.
It's okay. I'm here for whatever you need, remember?
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thanks
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can i sleep in your room
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Want to help me redecorate?
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Were they salvageable? Was there anything else you needed to replace? We could go shopping if we needed to.
[Trying to think of ways to keep Yuji busy, so he's not just sitting around stewing.]
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most of my stuff wasn't damaged that badly so its not a big deal
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Okay. I'll be here whenever you want to come by.
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